Wednesday, September 22, 2010


Hey people.

Again I have to move house. It is getting aloying, every three months or so we move. I wish I could just pack up and move to amercia. Or a hell of a length away from my family. They dont even know what is going through my head, Aunty T thinks i need profencial help as i suffer strong depression. But all i need is time alone, I read to many books as my Aunty A says, but heck i love books and yes im naughty i read in the dark. I am not trying to be a vampire but yes lights do hurt my eyes and i do profer the night over day where the moon is a natrual light and the moon makes the world a better place. Damn i love the moon light, it is natrual and gives the world a shine that you cant imagain. I would rather hide all day and sleep and work and spend my nights along beaches and enjoying my self. But no I have to blend in with the rest of the world. So i am off to get back to work :D and i will type to you again soon.

Keep Smiling

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Making the days go by

Hey friends,

So life has been weird latley, family being odd, parents are so not acting cool. Like some sick jock i am missing out on. If you asked me a week ago if i though it was normal I would have said yes but now it is just to weird. With my boyfriend out of the darn country for three weeks I have only have a limited amount of people I can talk to. Sadly my closest friend either dont talk to me or are angury at me for some reason I still dont know. I have been helpiung my auntie out at her work we have so much fun, at lunch we laughed so hard our drinks came out our noses, and laughing so hard our ribs hurt. We all get along great but i still feel something missing.

Like a part of me has been hidden from my soul and I have to find it on my own, but people don't see how hard it can be when you are a teenage witch people look down upon, Being the oldest of pletny of grandchildren people always look to me to set exaples but when I say I am a witch, they look down on me and boy my mum gives me so many talks abut what I am and who I should be. Mabey I want to be myself and a witch.

Do people even think of each other any more? Why dose the world have to kill our emotions and hearts? I remember when I was a child my family actually knew neraly everthing I did and now they bearly know my middle name, which by the way is Elizabeth.

Missing somenthing I have never had seems stupid but knowing it could be there in my reach makes me work twice as hard to get there and follow, my dreams and goals. So you all have to smile and follow your dreams, if you screw up it is your fault and no one elses, the blame is on you.

Keep smiling, Keep Reading.

Monday, September 13, 2010

The Future

Hey Friends

I have decided that I will stop being bossed around like I am still a baby. I have grown up to be who I am. Yes I am not the smartest cookie around but I have skills not alot of people have. I don't attend school by my own choice I love to read and write it is my addicition. I can write anything, spells, books, chants and even songs. But to the cow that raised me that means nothing unless it comes with a dollar sign attached. Well I am making my self a goal. To get a great job and work my way to the top so I can hurry up and start living my dreams, I have started thinking alot about my future and it has got me batteling between my heart and head. The choices I must make are ones people can never face but I have been working alot on goals and plans, so I know that which ever choice i make will effect every one around me but what can I do it is the ripple effect.

I would love to just leave every thing I  have to follow my dreams, To leave every one I know and start fresh would be great, but I can't. The love I feel for the family and friends i have now is fading and soon enough it will be gone.  Soon enough my relation ships shall end, I will pack everything that is imprtant in my life into boxes, and leave the place and loved ones i called home and I shall start a new life all on my own.

It seems harsh but once you think about it, we all need to say good bye to the things or people holding you back. There a far and few people who will let me have my own feelings or let me follow my own dreams. I am thankfull to my auntie Kylie for opening my eyes to how I have been raised to do certin things. People say that the way you are raised is the way you live, Seeing it for myself is a diffrent story. I thank every one for opeing my eyes. Alot of thing are going to change soon and I will be more than happy making the changes.

Well I am off seeing the fact I have three unperfect little cousins I am spening my afternoon with. You have to love the unperfect ones more than you could the prefect ones.

Keep life happy.